do something that surprises, inspires, and terrifies me

pretty scary i’m not going to lie.
my spanish isn’t great and i’ve had a lot of communication problems. i’m a little scared of everything, i’m scared of people walking up to me and bombarding me with spanish, i’m scared of activites with my group and i’m scared of the silence between me and my host mom. But at the same time, its different and I’d rather be here than home.

leaving always terrifies me and inspires me

after a long while of horribleness and being treated really badly and him telling me he was an asshole i left

my mind confuses me
it reverts back to remember only the good times
but then when someone doesn’t call me back,
when someone swears at someone else,
when i hear a mysoginistic song on the radio
i think of him,

and what a huge letdown he really was.
and that i deserve much much better,
and to never let myself be abused in the same way
ever again.

i gave a guy my phone number and to my suprise,

he didn’t throw the number away

he called me back

and we hung out

and now we are dating =)

me and my bf would be apart.
and we are, which is suprising and terrifying.
yet i’m realizing he’s not the only one out there.
i’m starting to feel more excited about things.
i’m inspired to live better and happier.

getting a tattoo is suprising, inspiring and terrifying.

im also going to spain which is scary

swimming in the ocean and almost drowning by waves is suprising and terrifying

asking a guy 2 days after i met him to make my real bf jealous…. terrifying and inspiring.

just by being spontaneous this goal is amazing

yet i want something more suprising and terrifying and inspiring things to accomplish.