no i totally understand what you’re talking about. i had friends in high school who kind of just ended up being my friends because we had no one else to hang out with. and for good reason. we’re all so different and i had a hunch from the beginning that our friendship(s) weren’t going to be very strong. i mean we did stuff together, hung out on the surface, but it wasn’t really that deep. definitely what i wasn’t looking for and it made me sad because i kind of just wanted it to fade away even faster. i still do now because i realize that they weren’t really my friends anyways. i really hate surface relationships but i realize that you have to put yourself out there so that people know that you trust them. so i agree partially it was my fault, but hell, everyone is so busy sometimes it’s easy just not to want to try so i’ll give them that.
but what pisses me off is that we’ll do “surface” reunions which are alcohol free and then only half the group will get invited to this super exclusive alcohol-fest that i don’t find out about until after the fact and they never even bother inviting me or my other friend, who isn’t really close to me, but closer than everyone else (but that’s besides the point). and i can only think of what they’ll come up with as a coverup excuse… “well i didn’t know that you drank, bah blah blahhhh, or wanted to be invited.”
i dunno… is it just me and my thing with courtesy issues or formalities? basically that’s why i don’t really instigate putting together events and stuff; because i want to avoid them entirely.
