find a best friend

i have a habit of telling my mom everything. i told her i was looking for a best friend online and she says ,’well maybe u werent meant to have a best friend’, and my sister’s like,’ i thought i was ur best friend’, and my mom was like,’ yea i could be ur best friend too sweetie,’ and im like…’yea. cuz i wana have to show my report card to my best friend.’ and when i wana trash-talk my sister for being a bumb i can’t tell my sister!!! that would defeat the whole purpose! my mom said everyone doesn’t have a best friend. she’s probably right. but even if she’s right, i still think its a little odd that i haven’t met any of these people yet.

i feel so pathetic looking for a best friend online, lmbo, but my closest friends ar my cousins and they dont count! i want a real best friend, like everyone else. im sad that i don’t have one. i feel like everyone around me has had a best friend since kindergarten and every time i meet sum1 i like, they start talking about their best friend. they always catch me off guard. im like, wtf? u have a best friend too!? and i get pist. and i leave. but im working on that=D im not crazy. i promise.