find a job i love

Shelving it for now…

Well I found my dream job. And I turned it down…..never thought I’d do that, but they wanted me to work weekends, evenings. A horrible schedule for a single mom of 4 kids. Everyone kept telling me that taking the job I “love” was going to end up putting the kids in a bad situation, so I gave it up. To be honest, I’ve decided I’m holding off on the dream job until my kids are older. I guess that means I really have found the full time job…..it’s being mom! I do love it, of course so maybe I accomplished this goal anyway!

Wow. Another great day. I love it there. I hope they offer me a full time job. Please pray for me!

Well I was completely nervous about going to this job, even though it is temporary, only lasting a month, and is only 3 days a week. I wasn’t sure I would even go until I actually walked in the door. I did however go and I’m so glad I did. I ended up meeting a ton of people, and I worked all day doing what I love AND I couldn’t believe I got paid for it. I actually remembered all my training and I did a great job. In fact I had many others asking me questions because they were impressed with me. How awesome! My confidence just went up by 100 percent. I think maybe this is the push I needed to get that full time career going!

A teaching position I applied for several months ago that I did NOT get offered, called me back for a part time temporary position teaching writing. It’s on the way other side of town but it’s only 2 days a week and it would be good on the resume. It also might be the answer I need to help me build my confidence up towards getting that career going full time. I’m going today to find out the info on the job.

This is the goal that I tend to sabotage myself on. Even though I have a Masters degree in my field, I have never actually worked in it. I feel nervous, inadequate and have a fear of failure. For that reason I’ve actually turned down very good job offers b/c I was afraid I would not know what I was doing and I’d make a fool of myself. Now it looks like I may have another job offer. I got a call yesterday from a place I applied at a few months back. I haven’t returned the call yet but I imagine that is what it was about. I actually asked for a higher salary than what I thought they would give. I think I did it on purpose to try and keep them from hiring me!! Now I’m wondering if my fears will keep me from pursuing my career.