i have wanted something in particular for quite some time. i have thought about it often. i had reservations about getting a tattoo. it would be very visible. it means so much to me. it is a personal message to myself. it is a statement to others. there is such a stigma to tattoos. it can be quite silly. i am coming to realize that it is about me. i should not have to question whether my body and it’s contents please everyone else. i have lived my life according to others. i’m over it.