calm down

Okay…I’ve gotten it together somewhat this week. It’s just a matter of putting things into perspective and not letting things get out of hand. It’s like a snowball affect. When I start to obsess on something, I think I have to fix it or control it and if I can’t do that (which I often can’t) it drives me crazy and I get super stressed. I am learning that I don’t control the world…although I still think I should…hahaha.

I gave myself those days to get it together and calm down. I was doing…”okay” but the day before my deadline I am a wreck. The worst I’ve been in weeks. I’m not sure what I need to do that I’m not doing. I exercise twice a day. I ate fairly healthy. I express myself in different ways. I never bottle things up inside. What the hell am I doing wrong?