keep in touch with old friends

I just need to beg their forgiveness at this point, and hope they don’t hate me for not keeping up on e-mail.

I need to contact:

Best friend from high school
2 good friends from college
Best friend from grad school
Former co-worker

Part of my slackitude is due to a massive falling-out with my best friend from college. I’ve never “broken up” with a friend before this, and it’s been really difficult and made me doubt myself to the core. I started to think I’m just a really defective friend, and that made me hesitant to resurrect old friendships.

I finally decided that while the falling-out isn’t all her fault, it’s not all my fault either. I have issues, but she has issues too. There were many good reasons we stopped talking, and those reasons are still extant. I need to see it through my eyes, not hers. And I need to not worry about what she might have said about me to other people – I should just assume she’s said nasty things, and move on.

I cannot believe my 15th college reunion is next week. How did this happen?? It seems portentous, the 15th reunion. I’m 35. Time to make some decisions and rake my life into shape, or at least neat Zen swirls.

I’m further marking my advanced age by going to a show with Blondie and the Cars the following day. Woohoo!

An old friend, currently living in Hong Kong, e-mailed to ask if I’m going to Reunion. Turns out she’ll be in the States for the first half of June!

She e-mailed both me and an old friend I had a major falling-out with, and I’m guessing that friend will go to Reunion too. I guess it’s time to bury the hatchet with that friend. I’m kind of dreading it, but kind of looking forward too.

Okay, I:

(1) Signed up for my college reunion;
(2) Looked up an old boyfriend. He’s in France. Now I have to find some interesting notepaper … procrastinateprocrastinate …

With three of my friends, it’s at that point where you’re too embarassed to write because you forgot to reply to their last e-mail and it’s been so long.

Damn.