gain weight

I am still alive and around… just been ignoring 43 things lately.
And of course, no weight gain here! hah.
I’m sitting at 120 pounds at the moment, have been for about a month and a half now.
I have however started to practice yoga classes at least twice a week, which has improved my muscle strength.(not my weight however!)

I find that I get into a groove where I finally decide, “yeah, it’s okay that I’m a little underweight… my body is just happiest here.” Then I see a photo of myself and I hate the gauntness.
My wish is still to get to a weight appropriate for my height, 5’9. Preferably between 130-140 pounds.

120 pounds again… not thrilled, but happy I gained that 5 pounds back from my monster cold in the fall. :) My goal is still to get to 135 to be healthy for my height(5’9”) but realistically… I’m going a few pounds at a time. It’s less disappointing that way.

Maybe holiday season and being snowed in will be cause for gaining weight? We’ll see…

Bummed cause I totally lost another 5 pounds this week while I was sick with a monster cold and stressed to the max…
115 pounds now… REALLY need to eat well next week. I’m on the road for work so there will be a lot of fast food, I’m hoping it will help. ;)

Well, I was hoping to gain those fifteen pounds this summer…(hah! idealistic girl!)
I did gain five! Seven… to be specific. I’m up at 125 now and been holding my own for about a month. It feels reallllly good to be past that 118 I despised so much.
I think working in a cubicle sitting on my arse helps. I’ve also been walking more, which helps with my non-appetite problem.

135 is still my goal! Ten more pounds to gain.

Still haven’t weighed myself in three months now… I’ve been so stressed out lately. Haven’t been eating well, my pants are loose, my watch is loose…

Maybe I’ll have the guts to weigh myself soon.

Haven’t weighed myself since the last entry of mine in this goal… 5 weeks ago, as 43 things tells me.

Sigh, I just don’t feel I’m getting anywhere in my weight gain. Partially given up, though I know I shouldn’t. I really need to eat regularly again.

Well; I’m at 118 again. It seems to be where I plateau and get stuck.
Still trying to get up to about 130-135 pounds since I’m 5’9.
With the added stress of the end of the semester, I just have 0 appetite right now and tend to eat erratically and unhealthy(hello Kitkat and a handful of cashews for breakfast) But Christmas break is coming! Hopefully I can have a bit more time to focus on eating healthy and getting outside to run around and play in the snow more.

C’mon, weight! I want bigger boobs here!

Went to a concert last night with one of my good friends. She had also invited another friend of hers to join us.
While my friend was buying a tshirt, we were hanging back laughing at some of the things people wore to the concert(hey, it’s halloween weekend, right? haha) and talking about how the heavier girls really shouldn’t do the whole miniskirt and leggings trend because it just makes them look much squatter than they are.
We were discussing the kinds of clothing that people could wear with their body types, kind of like a “what not to wear” type of deal.

Of course then I mention that I need to gain another 15 pounds to be happy with my own weight. And she’s just like, “No wayyy, you look great! If you’re eating, healthy and whatnot, regular meals then maybe being thin is just your natural body figure. Perhaps you’re just meant to be skinny. You shouldn’t force yourself into a negative body image just because people tell you you’re skinny.”
She went on to say that she thought I was really pretty, and y’know… it was just nice to hear someone for once who wasn’t all “my god you’re skinny. go gain some weight.” Genuinely telling me that hey- if you’re healthy and happy – fuck it.

I’m at about 115 now, which is good. I think I’d still like to try and get to a healthy weight of like 130. But it’s nice to think that maybe my body does just suit better at a thinner size. Dunno, but either way- a little compliment from someone really does a lot to up a dull mood. :o)

I’ve managed to maintain at 110 now, at least I’m not losing more! Stress is still eating away at me, but it’s not taking my weight anymore.

I’ve been eating healthy, no fast food, not JUST microwave suppers.(though I do admit that they are quick and easy on a busy night) I carry nuts, meal supplements(on top of meals) and quick snacks everywhere with me.
My car is packed with food actually.. haha.. that won’t last though- with the temperatures dipping beneath 0 now, things are freezing or becoming too hard to be edible. ;)

But I still cannot manage to GAIN anything. c’mon… all I ask is to get at least back up to 120 where I was feeling healthier. I feel weak and incapable at 110. I would be even MORE grateful to rise up to 130(my goal is 135 as a healthy weight) but I’d be happy enough with 120(for now) at least I would start feeling better.

Just keep battling on.

I seem to be edging the other way- I’ve lost about 8-10 pounds since I put this goal up.
I’m sure it has to do with the amount of stress in my life and the lack of time to eat 6 meals a day. :\

Since the stress really doesn’t look like it’ll be going away anytime soon, I think I’m going to have to get on to eating food everywhere and bringing food everywhere with me…