stop smoking weed

It’s only been a couple of weeks but to gain control of my life I will never trade for anything. It’s like I have been. Third try and last.

My skin cleared up my sinus cleared up headaches are gone. I have my energy up no more days laying in front of the t.v. I am even pushing myself to transfer in to a Nutrition and Dietetics program to become a Nutritionist. I use to say I could never do it and that it would be too much but now I can’t belive I would sabotage myself like that.

My daughter is no longer having tantrums because I don’t want to go outside. I regret what my habit limited her from doing. I couldn’t go to the park with my eyes like that with the other mothers. No more having the T.V babysit while I smoke and yell at her to close the door. So not a good look. I love my baby and I am so sorry.
My hubby is hanging in there also and not looking back. Well there’s the update for now.
You guys also have helped me in so many ways reading entries daily to keep me focus when I do get stress and can’t deal because smoking use to deal with it for me.
All the best to you guys till next update.

It took a little longer than I thought to get up the guts to quit. But I did, which is all that matters. I am reading Tao Te Ching and “a journey of a thousand miles starts with one step” right?

Well the first day was better than expected only a pit feeling in my stomach like I lost my “BESTFRIEND” <-Pretty sad in a way. I tried to understand all my feelings and deal with them the best way. My husband also quit that’s a plus also. Food at this point is the enemy. I drunk some milk and had to introduce my face to the toilet!!

I am taking MSM powder to help with the detox. It’s suppose to speed things up a bit so you feel like you have a flu or something. It taste gross but I take it with oj to mask it. I join the gym today to get my sweat on to help with the detox.

I am not picking up the phone or interacting with people much I am focusing on self right now. Plus all my friends smoke.

I am 23yr old female. This will be my third time quitting smoking, once when I got pregnant stayed clean for 2 years, then it got costly so my husband and I quit 4 months later here we are again. We went through 2lbs in the last 4 months. My sinuses are shot my throat body mind skin and everything else.

It makes me anxious be cause I know I am being lazy and I have things to do. It’s hard to be bubbly with my child when I am so high. I hate having to hide from my child so i can smoke weed. Trying to contain the smoke in a room so my child can’t smell it is always the impossible challenge. Like the towel or blanket works.

There is so much more to life. I started smoking to forget my childhood and family life. I hated my life and weed made me not give a damn. I tell it like it is when needed but stayed to myself analyzing everything. Now I see weed as my way on punishing myself for not being able to protect myself from abuse I have endured in the past.

I don’t want to be consumed by the thoughts of my next blunt, and the search for the highest high ever. I am tired of giving away money for bullshit. I am tired of half assing my class work and panicking when I have test because I don’t know if I really got it. I am tired of depending on it to deal with stress. I am tired of needing it end my day. I am tired of sabotaging my own goals and dreams

I want to be healthy vibrant. I want to be motivated. I have accomplished alot while high so I can imaging what I could do sober.

I want my control back. I am so scared of the withdrawal effects, but they are really not that bad. My body feels very nervous.

If there is anybody out there that needs support or willing to give support please feel free to hit me up.