give my number to that guy :)

Um…

Forgot he bartends.

He said he’s working late tonight and asked if we could maybe get together tomorrow, if that’s not cutting it too close for me.

I was kind of mad…he runs the beach for the county parks department during the summer and while I know it’s opening weekend, how much “late night” work could he have, especially since it rained ALL DAY and therefore I imagine attendance at the beach was slim.

So I responded: “Yeah, tomorrow would be cutting it too close. Lots of last minute packing stuff to take care of, etc.”

I didn’t expect a response, but instead got: “Well I’m stuck bartending tonight…and I’ll be at the beach tomorrow all day. You could come up there if you want or let me know if you do have some free time. Would like to see you before you left.”

Duh…he bartends sometimes. Which probably also explains last night…his grad school buddies know he bartends and visit. (He’d had a fb post about how it was great catching up with grad school friends, which was mysteriously deleted later on in the day.) Obviously I’ve been wrecked and made very cynical by my past love life…boys don’t tell the truth. Boys made excuses and lie, right?

Or not…

“It’s cool, I’m still tied up myself. I’ll be gone most of the day tomorrow, not sure when I’ll be back in the evening but I can let you know. Unless you just want to call it…”

My response to Coffee Prof cancelling our outing for the THIRD time. Really?? Really kind of pisses me off. If you don’t want to go, just freaking tell me. But cancelling THREE times? If I go, I’ll just look like an idiot.

Plus, I already FEEL like an idiot since it’s Friday night, I’m moving in three days, and I’m home alone. Now granted, I was very practical in saying my goodbyes to my friends so that I wouldn’t miss anyone due to things coming up last minute (because if my FRIENDS cancel, it’s understandable). But still, I kind of feel like a loser for having no weekend plans aside from with my family, and even then, I had to pretty much convince them to spend time with me. Awesome.

I can’t wait to spend most of next week in Colorado with a kindred spirit. I just wish my REAL friends lived closer. Maybe I should move out there for good!

But anyway, here’s the age-old question and the reason why this post is under the “guy” goal:

WTF is what it comes down to. “If I wouldn’t tolerate this behavior in someone else, why would I tolerate it in [insert guy here]?” I thought Coffee Prof was better than this, but I suppose not. You’d think that since this is the THIRD time, he could call…but no, he just texted. Sorry, that doesn’t reallllly make it seem sincere. No apologies for any cancellation, either.

And if I’m being REALLY honest with myself…it’s feels like it’s some kind of prank or bet where he’s like “let’s see how many times I can cancel on this girl until she stops being nice and understanding about it.” Even though the facts are that he’s 31 and I’m sure NOT doing something like that (I know, I read too much), but the thought is still there.

And it reminds me of That Guy and that just infuriates/hurts me more.

Two more days, then I’ll wake up and hit the road…

Oh my, that was fantastic.

I was SUPERNERVOUS on the way over, and a little nervous once we got there. I feel like I’m bad at getting conversation going, because I’m just so comfortable with silence in general and don’t find it awkward.

But…it was wonderful. We talked about relationships, about how you know you’re comfortable with someone if you can take a trip with them, about roadtrips, jobs, adventures, etc. Every time I hang out with him I feel like we find more and more in common and I think that’s amazing.

Not that this is going to take any kind of amorous turn or anything, but it’s just really nice. I hope we can continue this indefinitely!

He had thought I was leaving in about a week for Utah, and was glad that I still have a few weeks. He’s going on vacation and wants to get together to tell me all about it next week, and then maybe “get together a few more times” before I leave. Yess!! Super excited about that.

It’s really nice to just relax and chat and listen to someone who seems to kind of “get” me…I miss that feeling.

Not that this is going to take any kind of amorous turn or anything…

Lol :)

I’m having an outing with Coffee Prof in two hours…I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO WEAR!!!

Ugh, I’m so not that girl.

But I want to look nice, of course…ahhh!

(And I’m super excited!!!)

(Hopefully he is too!!!)

PS. Totally going to be sick. Lol…

Well, the door has closed on the Guy from Work (referenced on October 10, I see). He is exceedingly wonderful with the kids I work with, which I’d say is a rare trait amongst guys in their late 20s. He also skydives and scuba dives, so big points for that.

We had a brief conversation of sorts in the hall yesterday that left me giggling all the way back to the classroom:

Me: How’s it going?
Him: Not too bad, how are you?
M: Oh, I’m pretty good.
H. Thank you!
[Awkward pause…]
H: Um…I’m not sure why I just said thank you...
M: [laughs]That’s okay, it’s been a long week!
H: That’s true…[pause]...thank you.

Pretty funny to see the guy who typically never loses his cool (whereas I feel I do frequently) get flustered.

However…a teacher who knows him well, and in fact was the one to suggest to him that he should get to know me, pulled me aside the other day to deliver the sad news that he is, in fact, gay.

It was a sad day for ladies everywhere.

Finally heard from coffee prof. Ugh. At this point I don’t even care. He’s free Tuesday and Wednesday. Either works fine for me, but I almost feel like waiting until tomorrow to respond, despite the fact that he’s online right now. Ugh. I hate these stupid games people play, but honestly. He’s going to ignore me for days after saying those are the days he’s free, and then I’m going to drop everything to respond? This whole thing SCREAMS of That Guy.

I’ll still go, I mean, he did fill out a reference form for me and I do enjoy his company, but honestly. He seems like a lot of WORK for just coffee.

Still nothing from coffee prof. And that REALLY bothers me.

Ugh.

So, coffee prof has let me down.

After being SO INTO getting coffee, so it seemed, he apparently isn’t all that interested any more. Or so I’m going to assume.

We’d messaged a few days ago; I had told him that I am sorry for having not set up concrete plans and that I was still waiting around for Utah to call. He said no problem; he’d been thinking about our coffee outing and was free later this week.

Yesterday I messaged again saying that I’d set up an interview with Utah and thus was free from our game of phone tag, and that Friday and Saturday work well for me.

No response.

Which wouldn’t be a big deal at all, except that he’s been on facebook many times since then and was even on fb for a while tonight. I feel like if he has time to put up videos and new releases on his fb and sit on chat for an hour, clearly he’s just too busy to answer a fb email and obviously coffee with me isn’t a priority.

So that disappoints me.

And now he’s signed off of chat, but is still online. Who wants to guess how long it’ll take him to message me? I’m going to go with “maybe next week.” Anyone else have a guess? ;)

Tonight I was told by my dear friend (and best insight into the male population) that he envies the guys I date because apparently I am AWESOME at fun and adventurous dates.

It’s true. I am. More gentlemen should know that, right? haha…

13,150!

So, coffee prof and I are attempting to set up another outing. He keeps referring to it as a “coffee date” which could be nothing or it could be something.

Either way, I find myself REALLY looking forward to it, even though I have my doubts that he has any romantic inclinations towards me and despite my great respect for him, I am not romantically inclined towards him.

Maybe I’m just bored.

Regardless…here’s to hoping it’s soon! :D