post poetry

Deal me in one more time,
I get the feeling that I should be fine.
Playing a game to leave,
But always being drawn deeper in it.

A losing hand again,
Is how this night will end, just like the last.
Deal me in one more time.
Because it all stops mattering in due time.

Brightly colored boxes,
Keep contents safe.
But will keep your from the
Things that you need.

Keep them till December.
Then they’ll open,
To show us what we want.
But not the need.

Brightly colored boxes.
Then they’ll open.
To show us what we want.

In the distance,
Is where your eyes look.
Don’t worry yourself.
I just won’t go there.

Keep your eyes right there.
And ignore me here.
Just face forward,
So I can fall back.

I’ll fade into the
Uncontrollable past.

There’s a distance,
Between you and I.
I cannot hold you.
And you could never,
Look me in the eye.

Lights beckoning,
To see the show.
In the crowd were lost.
We are just as lost,
When were together.

I cannot hold you.
And you never would,
Close the distance that’s,
Between you and I.

I’ve got enough fight in me,
To give up.
Because this point you’re making
Not letting me be.

I’ve got enough fight right now,
To walk out.
Getting too tired to listen
So I’ll take my bow.

I’ve had enough of this fight;
It’s time to just stop caring
Who’s wrong or right.

Staring at a message,
You sent in your time of need.
Frustrated and tired of
Wanting to be there now.

It is not me you want.
Stop confusing me, please.
It hurts to say but,
I won’t pick up, I’m not him.

Stop confusing me please.
Frustrated and tired I
Wont pick up, I won’t answer.

I got so tired,
That I could not sleep.
Eyes cannot focus.

Shifting in and out,
The room moves before I can.
All I hear is, crash.

I almost deleted your number,
For the third time this week.
Hitting my head with the phone never
Made me feel so very weak.

I almost burned your pictures,
But the matches didn’t strike.
It makes me wonder if I will
Be left with all this strife?

I almost fell for a high place,
But not because of you.
I was just standing up there and
Got tired of the view.

I almost left you forever.
But you managed to call,
And that made me keep your number.
And saved me from the fall.

I’ll catch you when you come back.
And will spend
Even more time not talking.
Just trying
Not to glance at each other.

Because you know that I won’t.
And I know
That you won’t even try, right.
Just trying
Not to glance at each other.

Spending minuets that we lost.
Just hoping
To spend them in silence.
And will spend
Even more time not talking.

I’ll catch you when you come back.
But I know,
That it will never be you.

Heaven must be far away,
Because this seems to be my hell.
These fake smiles keep coming.
So cold, with the taste of saline.

Don’t care about what I say,
Because it is all just noise.
Red eyes, but the smile stays.
So cold, with the taste of saline.

Just keep talking about
Me as if I was never there.
Face forward, but am I here.
This place has always been so cold.