stop thinking about "him"

I give up “trying Not to think about Him”.. its too hard cuz when I tell myself to just let it go.. I replay things in my head and I can’t stop.. I don’t even know if its over or what… I tell myself let it go.. just let it go… but theres this thing he has..and just the thought of him, his eyes, his lips, his taste.. it makes me hot… it overcomes me… and I get sooo lost into thoughts of things we did..said.. done.. ughhh… I miss him sooo much..

I feel like its over, I’m not sure..
He’s such a sweet sin. I know its probably just me.. I miss him badly… I’m not hurt by him.. it just hurts inside to know that there’s this possiblity.. that I might not ever see him again… And I just have to take it in.. just like the rest of the things I go thru in life…
I didn’t think.. I would feel like this. I feel like i’m aching inside… and its.. its just sad.. because there’s nothing I could do.
I have to try and not think about him..