stop masturbating

Things have not gone well for the past 3 months, thats all I can say. I’m at the point where I am ready to give this up completely and just stop torturing myself over this shit. I’m giving this some serious thought on whether or not it is better to succumb to the temptation every time it shows itself and stop worrying about this, or to keep it up and keep struggling with the failure the way I am now. This has to end one way or the other…..

I am past the one week mark now, this has made me so happy, it has taken me !5 MONTHS! to be able to gain the strength to go seven days without masturbation, from what you guys have posted though it seems that it just gets easier and for me I think it will. I’ve so rearranged my schedule around my school life that I have time for little else. I’m getting up at 5:30 and going to bed at 9:30, doing nothing on the computer except facebookin’, and have all honors classes so my life is definitely full. And if that isn’t enough I’m going to start taking bass lessons in the next few weeks.(I’ll be rockin Mettalica in my garage in no time =)!) The Lord has really blessed me since I recommitted my life to him at a school revival several weeks ago and really started to try and live for Him. I hope things are as good for you guys as they have been for me. God bless!

Well, I’m back, I didn’t give up this time, I left after I failed miserably three days into September. After that I fell back for several days and then went 6 days without until I messed up last Sunday morning, so here I am, I’ve changed many things in my life to be able to do this, most notably, getting right with God again. He has given me the strength that I’ve needed to do this for so long and I am truly happy that I am so close to the first tier of my goal. I also notice there are a lot of new people on the board. Keep at it everyone and God bless!

messed up. did it while half-asleep last night. I wasn’t thinking straight and clearly. I need a hobby besides designing web pages, I spend way too much time in front of the computer and my video games, and am exposed to way too many temptations. I need a good hobby that will keep me occupied, I’m not athletic, do you guys have any suggestions?

YAWNNNNN oh sorry really tired still. Going good though. Keep at it guys. Oh man if I make it past tommorrow I will have made it past my 6 day record mark. Keep at it guys and God bless.

Im on day 4 or 5 don’t really know I’m getting up at 5:45 in the mornings to take a shower before I go to school. I’m so tired I don’t have the energy to MB. I’m halfway asleep at the keyboard right now. keep at it guys, and the new members good luck and God bless!

I decided that I needed to get some real support from someone I actually know to help me through the hardest thing I’ve probably ever done. (no offense guys) I had been planning to tell my best friend for the better part of the summer, and never really got up the nerve, so this afternoon, I accidentally slipped and said something in someones comment over the phone while checking my email and he automatically inquired what I was talking about. After I told him nothing he wouldn’t let it go and finally I told him. I kindof mentally braced myself for his reaction, but really nothing in the world could prepare me for what he said. He asked me “Why would you want to stop?”

Turns out my best friend has been doing it for the past few months and thinks it’s really awesome. He’s at that point where it hasn’t started to take any affect on him and he doesn’t know what kindof damage it can do to him. I tried to tell him that he needs to quit before it takes ahold of him and starts to mess him up like it did me, but he won’t listen. i gave him the site, but he really doesn’t think there is anything wrong with doing it. I really don’t really know what to say or do or what kindof impact it will have on our friendship, but I’ll be praying for him.

Ok, It is day 2 for me and I have made a commitment not to MB for all of September, it’s the beginning of a new month and by tomorrow, I will have virtually no free time on my hands! This should make it a whole lot easier for me to go for longer periods of time. Good luck and God bless!

p.s. can you guys put up some prayers for me, that I can have the strength to succeed? thanks!

student orientation. 25 cheerleaders.’nuff said.

I messed up. It didn’t even feel good, more like a stupid ritual than anything else. Anyway I’m back on day one. Best of luck to all you guys:) I’ll be praying for all of you!