lose weight

I was on my progress of losing weight.. and the journey was life changing. But… (Usually, on conversation, ‘but’ is the worst word you can hear someone say…) I have put on weight… !!! Arrgghhh, so angry!!! I lost 25kg, (Approx 50-55lbs I guess.) which was amazing for me…I went from being very much ‘obese’ to just overweight. Not good, but visually and physically I felt a LOT better. I’ve now put on, in the past 6 months… about 6kg; which is horrible. Loss of 25kg, but a gain of 6 – but I feel like a failure, you know. It isn’t the fact that I’ve lost a bit and gained a little, but the fact that I knew I could do it. I knew how to do it; and I knew how hard it was to do. This is my life, and the past 6 months, weight-wise and I guess my overall life, the effort that has been outputted by me is…close to none.

It’s that simple – I’ve lost hope. I’ve lost enthusiasm. I lost that central part of me that for a sweet moment in time, enjoyed who I was, and where I was headed in life; you know?

Well, who can I blame (It’s typical of people to blame someone for something, substantial or minuscule, no one blames themselves these days…) for this weight gain…I don’t blame anyone. I don’t even blame myself. I just know that I am a factor to why I have put it back on. I just..I don’t know. I guess I just gotta start fresh…Pick myself up, dust myself off and rewire my brain…Restart the computer…Turn the lights off then back on…Throw away the plastic bag and get a new one… (Okay, sorry for the pathetic analogies, haha!)

I hope you all have a merry Christmas, and try to eat all the delicious Christmas food – but of course in portion, and remember one thing (That’s if you’ve actually read this…) no one controls you, and you are the only one that can change your weight. People can help you, products can help you – but in the end, you, and you only, are the one that will change your life.
Thanks guys ^.

I just came back from three days on death camp….I mean School camp for a Drug and Alcohol related Course (It’s compulsory for everyone to do, so..) and the food there was literally… not food. Haha
Breakfast was cereal, (which was stale, yum!) or you can get the big breakfast…Sausages, scrambled egg, tomato, potato, all the oily and fatty breakfast kinda food you can think of… and since I don’t eat beef, I was like “I’ll just get cereal” ==”
So, most days, I didn’t eat any breakfast, except for maybe one slice of toast…
Lunch was the best to be honest….Chicken (Actual chicken, I was so proud… it wasn’t like artificial chicken nasty shit you usually get on Camps!) lettuce, cheese, beetroot on a roll. It seems simple, but so yummy!!
Dinner… Was really dodgey pasta…Heaps of carbs and fats.. I had a small bowl… with some garlic bread…
And morning tea and afternoon tea was usually just like, a small piece of fruit or something really simple… so that was good.
And, one the first night there, we had Chocolate Milk and cookies late at night, which was alright…
Health wise, I didn’t eat much at all during this camp…Most of the food made me want to throw up…So, I just went without…It’s bad I know, but I needed to…I drank lots of water, cordials, and Ice Slushies so, that kept me alive…

I’ve now currently, from early 2010 (I honestly forget when I started… I think maybe in March…Or possibly even later…) until now…I’ve lost 23.5kg (according to this website, that’s just under 52lbs)
But, today was ‘that’ day…that I’ve gotten under a weight I’ve been at for a while…
I’ve gone from (Since I haven’t actually measured my height, and actually just done an estimate…) approximately a 34.88BMI to 27.62BMI
Now, I know BMI calculators aren’t the most ideal for measuring how “healthy or unhealthy” you are, but I do take it as a guide and aim for a lower BMI (But ideally, I’m aiming for a better body, and a lower weight!)
That’s it for now…Thanks!

Started at a BMI of 35 (Scary!!)

Currently at a BMI of 29!!

I cant wait to get between a BMI of 20 – 25!! XD
Not long now!! Yay!! XD

With the Christmas holidays and all….

before christmas ii found out ii had lost… 0.5kg!! whoo!!
After christmas, realised ii had gained like… 2kgs… so… technically… gained 1.5kg from that 0.5kg loss…
But eh, it’s another day, start fresh, exercise and eat well and get back on track.. there isn’t any point getting all worked up over it… right?
:/

Thinking about joining a Gym too!! What do you guys think? Is it worth it? Have any of you tried a Gym/Currently at a gym??
Not sure if it is worth it… Since… there is a one month minimum (A tester to see if you like it, then a membership of 1 year… which you can cancel… for a fee.. ==”)
So thinking of doing a month tester to see if ii like it but ii want some opinions first!! Thanks guys! Hope you had a merry christmas, and didn’t put on TOO much weight!!

Oh, and one last thing… ii dont really have a goal weight… just until ii feel better/look better…

But I’m assuming that would take… another 20kgs…. But friends/family say ii should lose only 10kg more…otherwise ii will be too thin (Too thin in a perspective of “normal” sized friend group… who dont aim for “unreachable goals” so I am feeling happy about that.. not sure… Maybe check a BMI calculator…? that is one thing I actually haven’t done… and I’ve been at my diet/weight loss/(more of a eat what you like but be sensible with it rather than a diet) for just under one year…

Talking too much… anyway, have a good holiday guys!!~

That I’ve been trying to actually achieve this goal until it satisfies me (Been at it for less than a year!) and I have lost 19kg! – (41.9lbs)
So I am quite happy!! :)
But Honestly, I have a long way to go, in my opinion!! haha
Hope everyone is going fine… and if you aren’t…. Don’t worry! There are ups and downs in all aspects of life, but you will succeed!! Keep going, work harder and you shall achieve!!
If you need any help, though I am not that helpful – send me a message for some help if you want! I will try my best!

Lost about 5kg at one stage.. That was a LONG time ago.. I gave up too soon, and after a few weeks with only 5kg gone I got angry at myself and realized I “failed” and should just give up. But this time, I am really going to try now. I feel so embarassed about myself and I don’t mind how I look.. I mostly care how I FEEL. Any help is good.. Going to start again.. and hopefully this will be for life.. XD

I took the 43 Things Personality Quiz and found out I’m aSelf-Improving Tree Hugging Extrovert

but I’ve been on and off the whole “diet” thing.
>.<”!
I havent been on 43things.com for a long time; and I was thinking it’s been a whole year (tomorrow was when i started!) (December 16)
and I’ve prob been at the same weight, if not, maybe a bit more of a bit less.
I’ve lost track of what I started as; or what I have gained/lost.
I’ve seen lots and lots of people lose weight and write about it.
Usually people will read a story about how someone lost so much weight and feel motivated and lose some weight of their own; but I just don’t get the motivation that the rest of you seem to get.
Is there something wrong with me? lol.
I’d like some help.. as in what I should do?
I hate exercise (some sports and some things I like)
I love water and like most healthy foods.
It’s been a whole year since I started (and fell off the wagon than back on it, then off again, [it goes on]) and it feels like.. I’ve accomplished nothing.
:(
Eh.. maybe this year wasn’t my year.. (this year wasnt the best.. out of the almost 15years I’ve been on this earth, this year would have to be on of the worst.. although it did come with other GREAT things.)

Well i know ive added a lot of entires lately; but today is my birthday.
Got woken up at 7am (went to bed at like 11pm) by my mum..lol
yea today will be GREAT! and tomorrow, – My party.

Oohh..yea and i lost 5kg (11pounds)
Yay!!

Well lately.. as in like weeks… i havent really stuck to my ‘exersize’ part AT ALL…if i dont lose any .. >.< i wont be too angry…but yea..lol
wish me luck that I AT LEAST lose one more kg than the last time i weighted in =]