speak my mind

so I am going to tick it off on my list. Yeah me! I am now capable of letting others know how I feel without being embarassed or afraid of conflict. I sometimes choose not to raise an issue because the timing or circumstances are wrong, but I am no longer AFRAID to speak my mind.

This is a very big deal for me, and I am very proud of myself.

for speaking up on Saturday when I was not happy with a decision my husband made. I didn’t get what I wanted, and I am not happy with the outcome, but I spoke up, so I have to accept that I did what I could, and just let things be.

and it didn’t change the situation or the outcome, but at least I can say that I did speak up. I didn’t just stand there and take it.

But I still get tongue-tied around my mother. We disagree so fundamentally, and I try so hard not to start arguments with her that it makes it impossible to be completely honest with her. After spending some time with her, I end up feeling equal parts self-disgust and stupidity.