find my faith

I got a book. I dug it. We’ll see.

I know that typically what I am looking for can’t be found in a book but since books are what I’m comfortable with, I thought I’d explore some different options…...I need to find it however I can right? I think, inherently, it’s in there…..I just need to reconnect…...we’ll see how it goes…....sure can’t hurt to try.

I’m not feelin real faithful right now…I know it’s hard when times are at their darkest and I need to remember that. I need to find my center and just breathe…..I’ve let go of some things I thought I would carry with me forever so that’s a step in the right direction but I feel like I’ve lost my focus! Anyone have any suggestions?

This seems to be moving slowly but at least there’s movement! I’ve come to some very hard realizations and done some serious self-analyzing…...It’s not just about my feeling for God but myself as well and I can’t tell you which is harder to deal with…..

How to do this…is beyond just finding something…..Have to really be ok with letting go…

Ok piece by piece I am working through my feelings and several other things to find myself then maybe I can find my faith…..

Should it really be this hard?