So, we’ve broken up and it isnt that bad. A mutual understanding is what we came to. I thought I feel feelings of anguish and remorse but I actually feel light! Like a heavy ball and chain has been lifted off my ankle. Im single again and it feels so good and…...right!
Just when I thought I’d spend some time focusing on ME, an unexpected visitor walks into my life and sweeps me off my feet…literally! We practically grew up together but never spoke. Our parents are best friends and we went to the same church and highschool but our paths never crossed. He was the jock, I was the um…goody two shoes, who got good grades was still cool with the cool kids. So he calls me up out the blue and says he has to see me. Puzzled and all I respond letting him know he can come by. He’s all smiles as he approaches me and I wonder what this is about. The essence of the short epistle he unravels is that he likes me. It’s summer and flings are a given. But this…what was about to happen was more than just a fling.
Funny thing is that I liked him back. Strange right. Yet as he said those words it was if something clicked! We spent all summer soaking up each other’s company. It was surreal! He kept saying that. Then came the thing I dreaded the most…the end of summer! Fortunately we’re still interested in getting to know more about each other. He seems real serious about this and I want to be as well. Here I go again back into another long distance relationship…am I falling too fast? This feels so right though. I’ve never felt this way about a guy….it’s crazy. In spite of it all, my goal to remain chaste until marriage is very clear.
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After dating my borfriend of two years, I’ve realized that we were growing apart. I didnt feel the same about him and he was behaving differently. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder but I but my experience certainly proves otherwise….sigh. On second thought I thought that I was tempted to stick it out and try to patch things up. But I feel absolutely nothing for this guy anymore. So I ended it. He’s a great guy nonetheless so I hope he makes some other girl happy. I gotta be true to myself and him.
Our relationship came on under serious fire when I came home for winter break! It was a whirlwind of emotion and all that crazy stuff. Meeting up with him wasnt like what I had fantasized about. It was crushing to say the least….it was so awkward. I guess the distance is getting to him. He made up for it though. Then, he said he wanted to have sex-that just made things even worse cause because he wanted me to break my pact and he knew how much it means to me to keep it. I felt like we weren’t on the same page after all this time. Once again I had to remind him of everything. He said he’d keep waiting.
The sunday before I left he came by and it was great but real sad. We traded clothes and I got one of his jackets for the second time. I really love him but this long distance thing is taking a toll. Over the break I just dealt with a lot of tension, and distance…the closeness is dwindling :(
