Random things I can do right now to make my life a little better...

Yes, I know, I’m not very original, but it made a HUGE difference in terms of storage and retrieval of supplies!! Unbelievable! It’s cute too!

I was actually thinking about it today. And the context is this: I have decided that I am in an exciting, yet transitional phase in my life that I don’t particularly want to be seriously involved with anyone. Now, there was someone last year who interests me enormously, but he has a very different personality than mine, plus he lives thousands of miles away. And he is not really the long-distance type. And let’s face it, neither am I, so until I figure things out and move where he lives, which has been my goal all these years, yet totally unrelated to him because I’ve had it since before I knew him, I’m not gonna do anything about it.

Which leaves me wishing for the frivolous joys of mindless, no-strings attached relationships. Only I live in a small place, am in a peculiar, maybe even sensitive position, and I don’t particularly want to bump into someone I know or who is related to people I work with, and I really want to be discreet and keep my private life really private…..

This is really the random thing I want to do to make my life a little better, and yet, I’m not sure I can or should do it…. I’m in a terrible dilemma, and my friends are divided about it: some tried to dissuade me, while others don’t know, and a smaller, third group urged me to do what I want without reference to anyone else.

Oh well….. I had this crazy idea today to ask for the advice of last year’s romantic interest who is truly in a position to offer it, only I don’t really want him to know about this deep down. I don’t know what will happen between us in the future, but I really don’t want him to classify me in a way that I don’t want to be classified. And sadly, there are double standards in life, certainly in his case since he has been able to do what he wants without thinking about others, and his is even more sensitive a position than mine. He, too, is on a sort of rebound/transition due to his divorce.

I’ll have to think very very carefully about this.