jansu is doing 39 things including…

never apologize for being me

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jansu has written 2 entries about this goal

So tired.

Work is really getting to me at the moment. Most nights I wake up between 2 and 4 am and the first thing I think of is work and her. This is really getting me down. Twice last week I felt physically sick driving in and the week before was the same. Two/three more days to do, then I can forget about it all until the new year. Sleep and rest and peace.

Dec 19, 2010, 12:40PM PST | 1 cheer | 0 comments


Ha!

All I seem to do these days at work is apologize for messing up. I guess that’s not the same as apologizing for being me. It doesn’t feel good though that I’m so crap at people that I always have to be the one grovelling and feeling like a failure! I’ve had enough right now though.

I am inspired by the words of Jesse Jackson on an interview he gave this morning. He said something about admitting he made mistakes but it was about the getting back up again and learning and continuing.

I wonder though if the time comes when you have to admit you are just not good enough? I’ve been here before. Same lesson to learn? What is the lesson? Give up or carry on? Is it that I cannot do these things or that I lack confidence? I’m feeling sorry for myself right now and these ramblings are not really helping. If I can’t do this then what can I do?

Dec 12, 2010, 03:13PM PST | 3 cheers | 3 comments


jansu has gotten 21 cheers on this goal.

 

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go to New York vote watch the entire x-files series get a job learn to program have a family foreverHoping wants to plant a garden find the career that fits my skills, natural talents and passion Buy a motorcycle visit all 50 states Stop caring what other people think of me Read every Far Side Comic Strip Finish my website learn stenography Find someone who loves me for me go to France ldklf wants to read a book Do homework the day I get it see more plays Learn how to make music with Reason stop saying "you know" and "I mean" desitorrent learn to make tamales practice better time management. Comprar um carro lose 10 lbs create a non-profit organization
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