think positively

I’ve been neglecting 43 Things for a while now. Looking at it during the last 2 weeks has just made me feel incompetent (and my job already makes me feel that way at least once a day), so I avoided all my goals on here. I need to get back to seeing it as more of a refuge, a center of control, things that I am aware of that I need to do to better myself…
In my grown up Sunday School class today, we were discussing how God never gives us more than we can handle. I know that that’s true, but it was only making me feel worse and more useless. I am so ungrateful. I mean, I’m very grateful for all the good things that have happened, but I dwell so much on the negative that it clouds everything else. The problem is, I don’t know how to change that way of thinking. Instead of trying to focus on the positive, all I can do is think how I’ll finally be happy if I can just find a new job. I’m pretty sure that’s not how thinking positively is supposed to work. Ugh.