Quit Smoking

I survived hanging out with two smokers last night without even taking a puff! It’s only the 4th day in a row and I have seen some mighty good looking butts I could have smoked (I know that’s disgusting) but I passed them all up.

I started smoking cigarettes regularly when I was 20. Since I turned 24 I have been obsessed with quitting. When I drink I want to smoke though and I would be fine with just smoking while drinking but it always seems to lead to more smoking. Smoking spliffs also eventually leads to smoking more cigarettes. Since I’ve turned 24 or 25 though I have rarely let myself go above 5 cigarettes a day and sometimes I am able to quit for weeks at a time. But there are those weeks when I need at least one cigarette per day to make it. Today I am on my third day in a row without a cigarette and I’m proud although I feel like I want one really badly. I’m really nervous because I’m hanging out with my friend Heather tonight and she is a smoker. I’m trying to do the NOPE plan as of right now. Not One Puff Ever. This will be hard as I’m not sure I want to quit drinking. But I would be so proud if I could never have a cigarette again. At the same time, if I slip up I start over again the next second. This is my most important goal of all the 43 and I can’t wait to work on it as hard as I can. It’s almost as if the other ones aren’t even on the list.