It’s crazy how much of my summer this has consumed.
It was very nice of you to let me into your life completely for a short time and that’s something I have to realize. You didn’t have to do that. Now we’re drifting apart some but we still see each other once a week. Maybe it’s better that way. I still wonder what you’re up to and want to be there having fun with you, too. Your life is ten times more exciting than mine. You have that laid back personality that draws people in. Either way, I’m glad I know you and will continue to know you. I have a friend in you and you have a friend in me.
I may be slowly returning to the content version of myself who isn’t strung out by some sort of attachment. It literally is a slow process but I see myself making a huge improvement. I can’t really trust this person therefore I don’t really rely on her plans as much as I used to. I don’t even get that depressed about it anymore.
It’s a Saturday night and I’m not doing the bar scene which is a HUGE improvement compared to how my life has been the past few months. I’m perfectly happy sitting in front of my computer doing whatever I want.
I think I’m being successful! I’m actually feeling a huge improvement in my attitude. Today, I didn’t even have an urge to pick up my phone and I just went on my daily routines. Thinking about her was at a minimum. I won’t have any desire to text her tomorrow, or the day after. If she texts me then I’ll text back but it’s not like I’m going to be giddy about it or anything. I’m literally getting over it. This is such a relief. I hope I can keep this up.
This is such a tough one for me. I met an amazing girl this past semester and we’ve been hanging out a lot. She has the biggest heart and is someone I could see myself being friends with for a long time. However, I get emotionally attached to amazing people like this. I hate it. It makes me depressed, so I have to stop. It depresses me when I don’t get a text everyday and stuff like that, so I need to keep myself occupied and live my own life without having my own thoughts weigh me down.