get a degree

so thats me a quater of the way through 3rd year. My god its going quick.

didnt realise that so many of my goals are kinda linked in some way, but so happy about this, after the year out i thought i would fail again and that would be me off the course, so relieved more than anythign that i passed. At least now at the end of 3rd (providing i pass :P) that will be me with a pass degree! but more importantly i would have something to show after all this stress!

so i have just found out that i managed to fail the resit, even though its one one class i still need those credits. Now i just dont have any passion for this course but i dont know weather its becasue i failed so im giving up or i just generally should change course. I’m so confused.

but im really startign to question weather this is the right course for me. i mean i do enjoy it in parts but then theres some classes i just find way to hard and i feel like i havent stepped up to what is expected of me. im starting to think that the reason i was so keen to go to uni was more of a status thing. and it doesnt help that my mates and sister think cause they can do it then everyone who remotely struggles is a complete idiot and unbeleiveably stupid. when i do step in to argue my point the sort of just wash over it thinkin, that may be true but your still stupid if you dont know it.
whats more uni is ment to be the best time but for me its not. i dont do enugh work for uni but i dont do anything else to make up for it, like i dont go and i dont work. i got too much time to work but all i end up doing is thinking what i should be doing then thinking i got plenty of time to do it later.

everyhting is just too much for me right now.

all the lectures are finished for this year, only the exams left then in less than a month theres another long summer ahead

I already got into uni, in fact i’m in second year. I just need to make sure that i manage to get into every year, resiting as little as possible. Last year i had to resit one assignment and this year im guessing i will have to do the same at least. Because my course is so long (7 years) i really want to finish it and get a proper job ASAP