and seriously doubt that I ever will be. My long-term goal here is not to feel fabulous about my body, because I don’t think that is realistic. I’ve decided that what I want is rather a culminaton of several of my “things”, including walking more, eating better food choices, and not beating myself up if I make a choice that wasn’t the best one.
I have been getting back into walking regularly, and starting to throw some jogging in as I feel like it. My eating habits are getting a bit more regualar, and I’m very happy about that.
Part of my feelings on my body are simply physical image ones, others are realted to feeling as if my body has failed me..not being able to birth my children normally, bone disease, etc….some just not fair, some not common for my age. I realize ther eis nothing I can do to change these thigns, so I really need to let them go and appreciate what my body can do. There are people that have more pain than I do, who have limbs that are gone or un-useable, and I need to be more thankful for what my body CAN do rather than focusing on the things that have let me down.
The walking really helps my bones, as my leg and butt muscles are tighter, holding everything in line better, so I am trying really hard to keep up with this well.
I’m focusing on feeling comfortable in my skin, and being accepting of how I am…all I can do is the best I can, and it is about time I accept that that’s it.
Today, I’m feeling pretty good actually. I had an interview and felt that I looked good, my body felt strong, and for once, I was feeling good about my body. I hope that I can keep this up!
