find a way to tell my aunt and uncle I'm moving back north.

I finally worked up the nerve. I almost threw up in her lap when I was talking and nearly passed out from the stress of it. I know that sounds stupid, but this was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.

Lumpectomy, with no anesthesia-no problem
Child birth-twice-no problem
getting the crap knocked out of me every day by my dad-no problem

but this -THIS- nearly broke me. They have been my angels and my saving grace my entire life. To stand to them, look them in the eye and tell them I’m openly going to defy their wishes was by far one of the hardest things ever. I’m so relieved now that it’s over. They took it well and said they will still stand by me and provide anything I need. Of coarse, there will be no asking them for anything. I cannot bring myself to do that. But the offer is there. And that means the world to me.

I’ve put in my notice at work and I’m moving around the middle of October. There’s no turning back now. But now I have to find a way to tell my aunt and uncle. They will be furious and won’t be so quick to let me go. While I do make my own choices and have to live with those, I greatly respect their opinions and cannot stand for them to be disappointed in me. They have given me so much in the past year to help my boys and me try to get on our feet and start over in a new life. But my life, my work, my lack of education is holding me back from the potential I feel I have. But regardless of this, they are VERY adament about me staying in KC. They are certain I need to finish my degrees but want me to do it in KC. I want to finish at the school I started in, which will save me time and lost credits. Even though I have a wonderful job and make great money, it’s not enough to support us on. I still struggle every month to pay my utilities after the enormous amount of day care expenses I pay. I feel moving is the best thing for me and the boys, but I know that they don’t feel that way. I can’t help but feel they are being selfish in wanting us to stay. I’ve brought the subject up to them before and they were very against it and became almost irate at the idea. So, now that I’ve decided what is best for us, I need to find a way to tell them I think they are wrong in their opinion.