finish college

After 9 long years, I am DONE. It feels amazing…and terrifying.

Since 10 months ago, both my boys went into the hospital at the same time. 2 days later, my mom and sister were nearly killed in a car wreck. They stalled on the highway and were hit by 4 cars going 75 mph.
Both sons have been home since October and seem to be doing better. I went back to school in September, and again in January. Instead of doing 15 hours at once, I did 6 and 9 credits. This semester, I am in Advanced Legal Research, Civil Rights law and Juvenile Corrections. I’ve slept about 8 hours in the past week and I’m exhausted.
HOWEVER, there is an end in sight. 68 days until I graduate. Oy vey;

Since I’ve last written on this issue, there have been many many bad things happen in my family.

My grandma, who raised me, has been diagnosed with terminal cancer and she doesn’t have much longer judging by the way she is recovering. I’ve spent 3 weeks in the hospital with her and more time at her home. She’s failing so much. It breaks my heart. But she is helping me to accept what will happen. I love her so much. Please pray for a painless end for her.

Also, my youngest son is not doing well. He has emotional/behavioral disabilities. His teacher thinks I need ot put him in the hospital to be medicated and stablized. While I want to do what’s best for him, I feel like if he goes in the hospital, I won’t be able to handle it.

I’ve also sunk into a deep depression and have been in my home. I can’t get myself out of this funk. I have since stopped going to school….I can’t function at this point. I am trying to get my family and myself back on track, which unfortunately means that I am not going to graduate this semester as planned.

With the events going on in my life right now, I’m wondering how in the world i’ll be able to make it through the semester. I have only 1 semester to go. I am set to graduate in may, but i’m trying to figure out how to juggle a full college schedule, when i can’t keep my youngest son in daycare. UURRRRG

I…after much thought, have decided to take the summer semesters off this year. I was set to graduate in December after a lifetime of classes it seems. But, a degree without a sane mind to enjoy it, would not be worth the time and effort. So I am taking a “Mental Health Break” over the summer. I’ll be ready to graduate in May. Hopefully then I can cook my kids something other than Ramen Noodles and frozen pizza. :-) Hang in there guys!

I finished my first semester back. While I was shooting for all A’s, I’m okay with how it turned out. Especially considering I missed a week for my 82 yr old gma to have 5 bypass surgery and a valve replacement and dealing with my 8 yr old son being diagnosed with Severe Emotional Dysfunction, ADHD and possibly tirret’s Syndrom. I ended up with 2 A’s and 2 B’s. YEAH!!! Summer classes start June 4.

I’ve been back in school since January. I’m going full time, working part time and taking care of my 2 rambunctious boys by myself. I’ve not had time to sleep, eat or breathe, let alone come online. I did get my midterm grades….I earned 3 As and 1 B. YEAH. I’ll be around guys. Shoot me a message sometime.

I started back to classes yesterday!

I am moving back up north in about a week to be close to the university that I need in order to finish my degrees. I will be starting back to school in January taking at least 2 classes. While this will be a challenge as I work full time and have 2 little boys, it is one that I welcome and plan to face head on. I’m so excited…..and nervous….and stressed….But I keep trying to focus on the positive outcome of our move and what happiness it will bring to my boys once I have degrees to fall back on. I know then, that I will be better equipped to support them in the way they deserve to be supported.

I just e-mailed my last paper for my film class. Yes, it was a “pud” class per se, but it counts as my final English requirement and I’m DONE!!! :-) Now I have to figure out where I’m going to finish my degree so I can get enrolled.