I am feeling very discouraged with this one. I have been working my ass off, literally, trying to just survive everyday. Exhaustion is not the word for it. I don’t know what I am going to do about school. I am a junior but if i go to KU, I’ll lose most of my law classes. If I go to MoWest, I keep the classes and it’s more comfortable for me, but I would have to leave my job and uproot the kids again. Besides this dilema, I’m not sure I would even survive another class. I’m only keeping up in this one because it’s a film class that all we do is watch movies and write papers. If I actually had to apply myself, I would have to take effort from other things to do that. The only thing in my life that can afford time lost, is recreation. God knows I don’t want to pull back on that. I love my weekends with my friends. It’s my release, my vise. I just want to stop going for a while. Just until the boys are a little older, but I know if I stop, it’ll be that much harder to go back. But jeez, I haven’t even had time to fill out my grant application. And it was due in Feb. URRRGGGGHHH.