lose weight

Yeah, this isn’t going anywhere fast. I’m too busy and too stressed to deal with this. And I’m too poor to buy healthy foods. Fat, fat, fat.

Well…I found out that some people I know have weightloss xangas. Well, these could be helpful, but many of them are on ana/mia blogrings (anorexia/bulimia). I was shocked, and scared for them. The saddest thing? I am considering making a journal and joining them. It’s a desperate attempt but I’m at that point. I wonder how hard it would be for me to eat just enough to live. I could do it for a year, lose about 50 pounds, then I’d be able to exercise more easily. Sickening. But…thin is so important.

It’s in every part of my life. I wanted WLS, but my insurance won’t pay for it, so I’m stuck. It’s the only thing holding me back.