stop pushing people away

I was thinking about marking this off my list, but I’m not sure. I don’t really push people away right now, but I think a lot of that has to with the fact that there isn’t really anyone to push away. I have my family that are still going to be there regardless, a friend that has been there for 10 years, and my boyfriend. I have tried to push him away, and he didn’t go. That was one way I really know he cared and since being with him, I have changed so much. Even other people have noticed. I think I may still get a little distant from him sometimes, but I no longer try to push him away. I love that man and I hope to marry him, so why would I want to push him out? Other than those people, there isn’t really anyone I interact with, so I guess for now I am going to go ahead and mark this as done.

I always try to push people away. I’m not sure why. I think I have always secretly hoped they wouldn’t let me push them away. Just like a way of them saying that they care and they won’t let me go. I tried to push my boyfriend away, but he wouldn’t go. He doesn’t know how much that meant to me or that it is one of the reasons I love him so much.