Of course I care... — 1 year ago
I think my main problem is that if someone thinks badly of me – that I am a bad person or talk crap, or am unreliable or a bad mother, that they will be sending negative energy my way. Not intentionally, but the energy will be out there. I have learnt to keep up a barrier which seems to help, but I am such a worrier that at times things like this get to me – if something didn’t pan out as I hoped, I said something stupid or looked like an idiot, then I will mull it over as I do the dishes or go to sleep, thinking how I could have done it differently and had a better outcome.
It’s all a part of learning and growing as a person. My dh says “you shouldn’t care what so and so think” but while I am confident in myself and my own opinions, I still can’t help but be concerned what that other person or persons think of me if I have done something I felt uncomfortable about or wish I had done differently.
Don’t get me wrong, I still want to ‘stop caring what other people think of me’ – in fact in some ways I have stopped, as I know that I do my best and that they cannot hurt me as I have my own protective field, but I just want to have this on here as a reminder to myself. I hope this makes sense.
