Be more optimistic

this morning i feel slightly discouraged. i’ve been trying to be more healthy; drinking tons of water, walking for 30 min. every morning, yoga tuesdays and thursdays, and not eating so many sweets. it just doesn’t seem to be working. i have a cold, and in two days i’ve actually gained weight. last night i started contemplating whether i should really be vegan or not. it’s difficult when i’m around my family and out to eat, but i also can’t figure out if it’s healthier for me. i tried being vegetarian once, and my body seemed to freak out. i don’t know… i’m so lost. i feel i’m trying my best, and the opposite of what i want is resulting.

it’s difficult, but i believe i’m progressing. i am still very hard on myself if i make a mistake, and that’s something i need to learn not to do. whenever i feel negative about something, i try to find at least one positive thing. i’m going to keep working on it and hopefully at some point, it won’t be something i have to think about. it will just be automatic