I am at this moment in time financially independent and it feels good. I have found a decent enough place to live. I earn enough to support myself for the foreseeable future. I can treat family members and my girlfriend to a meal now and again.
I’d like to be totally independent, ie. have bought a place and paid off the mortgage like one of my friends and not have to be subjected to the whims of some landlords etc.
However, some times I still feel a bit shy around new people and feel that I am not independent enough in a social sense as I like to just hang around people I know well eventhough I’d like to talk to more people and perhaps make a few friends.
One of my friends is a great conversationalist and he can talk to anyone. What I try to do this I often end up talking complete and utter rubbish so I try to keep it to a minimum. But I have to say that there are times that I am on the same wavelength as the next person and it is a joy (rather than feeling like a billy no mates type of freak!)
I probably will develop my social skills the more I start becoming my outward-looking rather than being too intraspective. I need to become more self accepting too as often I just show the side of myself that I’m expected to show. Although this is the diplomatic approach, there are times that I feel I’m really restraining my personlity.
I think I can also improve my level of social skills by reading more as this we ward off too much self-absorption.
