It is 6PM and I’m writing from my city’s public library, which will close its doors in an hour. I think this is the place where I should be whenever I don’t have any specific activity planned other than wasting time (= pretty much everyday). Here are my reasons :
- my bedroom is not a room, it’s a BED. I can’t get anything done in a room so small.
- I’m obviously stressed out by my family.
- My life right now is just not healthy. If I don’t attend classes and can’t find a job or look for one, at least I need to feel part of the real world by dressing up in the morning and interacting with other people, even if that just means sitting in the same room as them ; if the only sample of society I have at my disposal is my family, no wonder I’m feeling depressed.
So from now on, whether it’s to take care of administrative stuff, check my e-mail, look for an actual job or simply chill out on 43things, I shall do it from this wonderful place (preferably in the morning). I have to stop being ashamed of my life not moving on ; if I stay in my room all day long, maybe I’m hiding my situation from others but I’m certainly not helping it. I think a change even that simple might help me get back on track sooner.
Since I can’t find any appropriate picture for this topic, I’ll just put this random photo of Mickey Rourke from Sin City because that’s how badass I must get !
