It’s not that I reject compliments, or brush them off or whatever. I’m fine at smiling and saying “thanks”, I’ve been doing that all my life. It hasn’t made me feel any better about myself, because I’ve always felt and still feel that I’m not worthy of any compliments.
First of all, complimenting someone for a “talent” (like singing in my case), is just stupid. I don’t believe in talent, I think it just comes down to training. However, I haven’t trained my voice, it just came for free with the musical upbringing.
Second, everything people ever compliment me for are things I take for granted. I’ve never actually worked to get good at anything, I just do things because they’re fun to do, so I don’t deserve any credit for that. I feel like I’ve hitched a ride all my life, and people compliment me on how far I’ve gotten.
I realize that people can’t possibly know all this. I should simply carry around a sign that says “freeloader”. Maybe then people will leave me alone.
Or, I could do something constructive. I just don’t know what or how yet.
