study for nationals exam everyday!

i finally got a confirmation that i am eligible to take my nationals . its been four years i know the knowledge i all there but i am afraid i have forgotten some things. lets hope i pass wish me luck!!!!!!!!!

Time for me to work a little harder. the only person that is allowing myself to fail is me right now! Its been too long! I should have already accomplished this already! i guess i seem to have thought love was there for me first and then the love of my career would fly in motion, i was wrong. I lost the love of what i believed was of my life. i feel stuck. the need to move forward but so un happily stuck. the lost belief in///// In me! I mean i believe in myself and i just need to accept that thats all i need to succeed in this case. its hard though when i have always had the people around me telling me they believe in me to modivate me. Its almost like i cant move forward without happiness first. I am happy but not happy enough to modivate me to move forward! Today though is a new day a new start! today i give myself 3 months to do this to take it and pass or i am really a failure. Today marks the rest of my life! It will start it or end it!

omg! so i have been out of the loop with massage since 2004, i mean not completly. I give massage to all my friends, they are my continuing clients, but now that i would like to hop back into the field and actually get certified and licenced i realized it is going to cost $225.00 for the actual 160 multiple choice i hope i could still pass all these years. then to get licenced which is required in this state, its going to cost $375 dollars and that breakdown is 100 dollars for the application submittion, 125 dollars for a backround check, and 150 dollars for finger printing. omg! looks like i am going to use a chunk of my tax returns to get that going. because in the long run it pays off! i guess i just am stressed on taking the test, i mean i am knowledgable and know my shit but i forget lil things and i just dont want to fail the test and waist any money ya know. I have complete confidence i will do just fine. oh and a portfolio review just because i went to school in another state! In the end its proffessionalism and success i get. credentials to it all. Paying for all that, i should of just done this all in 04 instead of waiting for so long! no regrets though, i will do this!