I am a lot happier with my loneliness now than I was when I added this to my list. I am going to say that I have completed this goal.
Accepting loneliness involves ignoring people constantly asking you why you spend so much time alone. It is not easy when they are constantly asking you about it but the funny thing is that the more you hear it from them the less you end up listening to it.
You also need to find ways to keep yourself entertained that don’t involve other people. I do this by playing computer games, watching movies, reading and browsing the Internet among a lot of other things.
I was given a week off at the end of the year which I thought I would really enjoy but it turned into a bit of a nightmare.
Being at home locked up by myself in my room started making me feel very depressed for the first few days. I started thinking about how much I have screwed up my life because I hate being around other people. I just stayed in bed and slept all the time and didn’t feel like getting up.
I am not sure why I suddenly became very depressed because I was feeling much better about my life for the last few months before that. I managed to break out of the depression after a few days luckily.
My new tactic is to immediately cut off any thoughts of loneliness as I have them and think of something else. It has helped a lot to stop the voice in my head from making me go crazy.
I have been spending my Friday nights at home for the last few weeks. Usually I go out dancing but I have become tired of the people there. I am a bit of a freak and they react negatively to my weirdness which makes them not want to be around me which makes it not much fun for me to be there. There are a few nice people I get along with though.
I feel bad staying at home because it will make me lose my ability to socialize and will make my problem even worse than it already is.
At the same time I enjoy staying at home much more than going out because that’s the kind of person I am.
The other day I met someone I I haven’t seen in a long time and she was so happy to see me and it made me so happy to see her. She has always been lots of fun to talk to and she is very accepting. It’s the few people like her that make me believe that there are some people who aren’t complete bastards and bitches like everyone else in the world.
So many people end up getting divorced and then live on their own. It is mostly true for men because they usually don’t get the children. Somehow they manage to survive by themselves.
I have an aunt who has some or other disease that has made her unable to walk and she can hardly move her hands. The one time I put a glass of juice down for her and she asked me to put it in her hand because she was unable to pick it up. It takes her half an hour to get up the stairs in her house which would take me about 10 seconds to climb. She has spent the last 10 years or so living by herself and even with her terrible disabilities she has still managed to stay alive and be happy.
Many older people have lost their partners but they still survive alone and are probably not sadder than they were before. In fact they are probably happy with their new found freedom.
A lot of young adults live alone for years before they get married and they probably love their freedom.
There are people who go live by themselves for religious reasons to understand their religion better. They are not necessarily alone because their God is with them but they are still alone from people.
A lot of people who don’t live alone still feel very lonely because of being ignored and unloved. Living with other people doesn’t necessarily prevent loneliness.
I haven’t found enough evidence yet that being alone is a bad thing. Anyone who wants to tell me that living alone is a bad thing needs to actually think about what they are saying and not just believe what they have always been told.
My dad came into my room and sat down and started talking to me about how I have been staying at home alone almost all the time lately. He told me that he could see that it was making me unhappy to not be around other people. The truth is that I am perfectly happy being by myself. He has been pissing me off a lot lately so I would show my unhappiness to him every time I was around him. He somehow took my behaviour to mean that I was unhappy being alone when actually I am only unhappy to see him.
He then told me that he had found a doctor (or psychiatrist I presume) and he wanted to arrange an appointment for me. He said that the doctor could fix all my problems and even give me medicine. I got very angry and I started shouting at him. I told him that he was the one who needed to go see a psychiatrist. I told him that people are different and not everyone wants the same things as he wants from life. I swore at him a bit and he ran off in fright.
I have not said one word to him since then. I also turn my back towards him whenever he is around. I stay out of any room he is in. I pretend he doesn’t exist.
Now my dad is giving me a hard time about me never going anywhere. I have been working from home for the last few months so most of the time I don’t see anyone other than my family. My dad says that he is very worried that I stay at home all day and never interact with people.
The problem is that his way of thinking is that it is important to be around people and so that means I have to do it. My dad is a conformist of the highest order and tries to live his life according to what he sees on TV. My problem with what he is saying is that if I take his advice then I will end up exactly like him which I definitely don’t want. He believes that because he likes going out and being around people that everyone else also thinks that but he can’t see things from my point of view.
There’s probably no one in the world who likes being by themself like me so my dad needs to go shove his advice and go annoy someone else.
There is a girl I see often and she has started talking to me more than usual and she is very friendly. It has started to scare me. I am so scared of having friends that I just started ignoring her.
Some people invited me to go out dancing with them. The idea of being around people scares me so I said that I had something else to do. It is strange because I am not scared of being around people when I do my ballroom dancing.
Some other people invited me to go to a pub with them. I didn’t say anything and ignored the request. I am glad that I did because it turns out one of them is gay and who knows what he might have tried to do to me.
I have been working from home for the last few days. I have to be by myself all day every day. You’d think I’d get lonely but I don’t. I have loved every second of working alone from home. It feels so good to not have to be around other people anymore.
I have always enjoyed spending time by myself. Other people go out on weekends with their friends but I just stay at home and enjoy being alone.
People give me a hard time because I like being alone. They are always trying to convince me to be more social. Maybe it is not me who should accept that I enjoy being alone but rather them.