Accept my femininity

I have definitely opened up to my femininity over the last few months. Society has always expected me to act like a man but I just don’t feel comfortable with it and that is why I was becoming so depressed.

I used to believe that it was not very manly to take medicine of any kind because I thought a man could handle sickness and pain. Recently I went and got myself some painkillers for the first time in my life and it took my terrible headache away and I wonder why I never did it before. I gave into my more intelligent feminine side instead of being manly about it and it made me feel good.

I am much more open to my feminine interests that I have been hiding from people. I love ballroom dancing I don’t care who thinks I am a fag for doing it.

There’s just no good reason for me to pretend to be a man when I’m not. It is such a relief to open up to my femininity like this. There is still lots of work to do from the years of conditioning but I am glad to be making progress.

I have always secretly fantasized about being a woman. I really like woman but not in the same way that most guys do. One of the reasons is because I have very feminine interests. I also just think that they are nicer to be around. I love talking to them because they mostly have something intelligent and interesting to say and they have similar interests to me while guys just want to talk about sport and cars and other stupid stuff that I hate.

There are a lot of problems with being a woman which deter me from the idea. They seem to have it a lot harder than men. They aren’t treated as equals and they are often violently abused. There are lots of other things but I can’t list them all.

If I was one day somehow transformed into a woman I would probably be a feminist lesbian because I hate men and I wouldn’t want to be anywhere near one of them. I think it is because of the way I have been treated by my male “friends” that makes me hate them so much. I am not saying that all men are assholes, just most of them.

I don’t really like doing the kinds of things normal guys like doing.

I hate masculine things like:
Sport
Beer
Cars
Showing how macho I am

I like feminine things like:
Reading
Writing
Creativity
Being thoughtful
Being nice to people
Ballroom dancing
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