Worry about what others will think often stops me from moving forward. Sometimes its my search for approval, sometimes I just want to avoid getting crud from someone. And sometimes I am just a little too comfortable to change my scenery.
I just keep on keeping on. Move forward.
There will always be naysayers. Both internal and external. The trick is to stop listening to them.
Especially if they can tell you things that you don’t neccessarily want to hear!
I just had a long talk with a friend over coffee and am glad that someone was able to tell me things that I didn’t want to admit that I already knew.
In a nutshell they pointed out that I am always in conflict with the ups and downs of my life. I go from really delving into my current situation which is full of challenges, to knowing that I have been an uber-achiever to the point that I feel almost invincible. The only word that she could use to describe the center point is mediocrity. (not my favorite word, but I understand it)
This of course goes back to the mindset described in Secrets of the Millionare Mind. Being satisfied with my current situation was so engrained into me by my parents that I rebelled strongly against their “can’t do” attitude and overachieved at an early age. The thing about most of those ‘self help’ and ‘success’ books is that the world is divided between poverty and very wealthy, as if being in the top 10 of income earners is not good enough. (For the record about 50% of Americans earn $30,000 or less per year, only 10% earn more than $100,000 or more).
I have this knack of feeling either really inferior to others, or superior to them (without all the meaness that goes with it).
I need to find that center place.
Entries on this goal go back a year and yet no one has marked it as done. I wonder if they sabotaged their ability to complete this goal ?
“Creating new things will bring you an exceptional level of satisfaction right now.” (first line from my Yahoo horoscope today)
I am starting to envision where I want to go with my business (the passion is coming back, for the last 3 months I have just been responding to my notes from sites I created for other people). Sure business can be boring for some, but without passion and creativity most would never last.
I need to push myself and DO the things that I envsion. Create the things of my dreams.
Finally got my act together and set up the fax machine.
Got orders into two new vendors, both which could have been done weeks ago.
Just got an email from the designers that the preliminary website will be available for viewing in a few hours. (Just 5 days after I gave them instructions – why did it take me so long)
small things, imporant things, DONE things
Just think where I could take yourself if I put as much energy and creativity into manifesting my goals, as I do procrastinating and avoiding them!
I’ve read that self-sabotage behavior is an internal “tug-of-war” between having a desire to do and feeling like I can’t achieve it.
I hear myselfsay “I want to do this, but I can’t” all the time. This is my inner conflict, my self-sabotage. Much of this comes from my childhood, and as I understand more about myself I see how I have nurtured this mindset.
Its my hope that this will be the thing I let go this Fall. But it is such a huge project that I am not certain if the task can be completed. Of course, this last sentence may have sprung from my inner conflict.
I CAN DO THIS.