Once and for all understand, accept and integrate whatever has been causing my self sabotaging behaviour and get on with creating a fabulously enjoyably life to the neverending benefit of myself, my family and the whole world

And now, being integrated it just becomes part of the story. No more or less important than anything. Nothing special. I had constructed this prison myself from figments of vaguely remembered imaginings. Gone with the wind.

I don’t wonder what it is, this sadness.
No need to know, just a bit of curiosity.
That long lost file in my cranium,
craving clutter and chaos on which to feed.
So sure that it is it
that keeps the wolf from the door.
All this time, it has just been the defense
that made the attack.
No wolf, no door, no attack, no defense.
Put it in any order, it doesn’t matter.
After the storm, sweep up the leaves.
The sun will dry the path.
Fallen branches which once blocked the Way
Can now be used for firewood.
After the storm.

The best way to begin, is….(drumroll)
To begin!

Get on with it!
TGI

Underway. Finally found a way to get past what has always been the biggest obstacle. Getting Started. All I asked, demanded promised of myself was 5 Magic Minutes. Then I can take a 10 minute break , so long as I will do a minimum of 10 solid minutes on my paperwork. Oops, gotta go, my 10 minute break is up.

One of the useful moments in this life for me was the realisation that I’m nothing special. Life flows more easily now. There is nothing to defend. And all my problems are common or garden, ordinary, no big deal. Solvable. Or not. Whatever. Everything works.