be honest with myself and others

Lately I’ve realized that I am more confident in my beliefs and I feel like I have a clearer sense of how I feel. I feel that I’ve also been good about being straight forward with people. Being honest with myself was definitely the more difficult part of this goal. This is something I will always have to work on, but now I am marking it done.

This has been the goal of the week.

I broke up with my boyfriend, whom I had been dating for almost three years. Having that conversation with him was a big part of this goal. He is a very kind and sweet person, but I’ve known for a while that this could not last.

I’ve also revisited other past drama and friendships and relationships. And I’m trying to be more honest and expressive about what I want through work and career.

This goal is a challenge, a lot harder than flossing more or even going to the gym. But it is one of my most worthy goals on my list. I am glad I am working on this one.

I’d been thinking that this goal is one I really need to work on, but I think I made a bit of progress on this one. Still a long way to go, but I’ve talked out some things that were on my mind, and I think I do know what I want, or how I feel about some things.

Sometimes I think if I’m feeling content with my life, that I must be lying to myself. I wonder if there’s truth to that or not…

Lately I have been a bundle of stress. Somehow I keep thinking if I just curl up into a ball, the world will just pass over me, and I won’t have to examine my life and what I need to do.

I need to open my eyes to my life more. I started this morning writing in a journal. It had been so long since I had done this, I wrote six pages with barely even stopping to think.

This goal is a challenge, but an important one in my life.