love my body

so, i recently gained a little weight – nothing really major, just a few pounds over winter break. i know. cliche. but then i got back to my normal eating habits, and lost the weight, but i got a lot more cellulite-y? i thought cellulite came from gaining fat? but i think that maybe the fat that i lost/gained wasn’t lost/gained evenly or something? regardless, i really want it to be gone. suggestions?

this photographer wants me to model for him, he’s taking some nudes of me sometime sooon! it’s TFP, which is cool and exciting. i’m pretty nervous, but so excited. and i think that having great pictures of myself will really help me out with my self-image. but i’m also going to be working out as much as possible before the shoot, haha =)

i was looking at myself naked in the mirror, haha. and i was like, wow, i’m certainly not super tall or skinny or beautifully kate moss-ish, but my body has really cute curves and lines, and i like them a lot. my tummy is looking pretty good and fairly defined, and there’s just something i really do like about the way i’m shaped and the way my faint muscles look – which is a pretty good improvement on the way i see myself, for me. i still do want to lose a couple pounds though – i guess i don’t really need to, but just that little bit makes such a difference to me, i think. annnd.. i think i’m getting to exactly where i want to be – being comfortable with, appreciative of, and loving my body! =)

my body looks it’s best in the morning! i really don’t know why. just, my stomach looks the best/most muscular/flat while i’m getting ready in the morning. it’s kinda weird.?

well, i think it clearly involves straight-up self confidence. but what else? i don’t think i’ll reallllly love my body until i’m in a little bit better shape. maybe just a little toning is necessary.

so. i’m definitely not pumped about my body or anything. but if i stretch it out and make a sexy pose, my tum looks pretty love-able! well, for me, at least. haha. i’m still not happy with the thighs though. hmph. we’ll see.

i bought a new swimsuit, and i’m actually pretty content with how i look in it. although i feel that i could be happier. haha. i’m not all about being ridiculously skinny, but i still want my body to look.. super toned? so i ran/jogged today for an hour and did some sit-ups. =)

So my best friend and I joined a gym. Hah. I actually enjoy the working out idea, and it feels sweet to be like, “Hey, wanna go work out tomorrow?” I’ve only gone once so far. My goal is 1-3 times a week, I suppose. It’s important to me, being in shape and all, but it’s not gonna control my life.