Make new friends

Well, I got there about a half hour late, got myself out of the car and into the restaurant, and the hostess didn’t know what group i was talking about. the place was fairly busy, so i didn’t walk around asking everyone if they were “newcomers and friends of Laredo”. didn’t have that much guts. but I am proud of my self for getting out of bed even though i was late and making an attempt.

tomorrow night the book club is meeting. lets see if i can make that. DH says that will be more difficult because there will be drinking going on. he’s right. i REALLY don’t know if I can handle that. Maybe that could be my chance to show him i could do it. drink socially. oh hell.

Well, the first get together of the newcomers and friends of laredo is tomorrow morning at the IHOP. and i’m already freaking out and coming up with reasons not to go. why is this so damn scary???

they say people never really change… in any way that really matters anyway. maybe i’m just destined to be a hermit. the drinking helped me be more unconcerned about what other people thought about me, and it was easier to talk to people, be more outgoing. but now i don’t have that crutch anymore. it’s safer to just hide. my dog loves me, isn’t that enough?

I mailed off my application and check to the Newcomers and Friends of Laredo today. We got their newsletter because a previous tenant in the temporary apartment hubby was living in failed to submit a change of address. They get together for lunches, cards, etc. This isn’t the first time i’ve joined an organization like this though, and never attended a function. I’m determined to make this one different though!

but people scare me. really. my doctor added klonopin (sp)to my drug cocktail to help with the social anxiety disorder, but it doesn’t seem to help much. heck. i’ve been here 4 months and haven’t met anyone beside the cashiers at the HEB.