be beautiful

ok so my day started as usual, i woke up with huge circles under my eyes cus i had been feeling so sad last night i couldn’t sleep, i slept in and couldn’t find any shirts that went with my jeans so i pulled on my dirty sweat pants and a dirty shirt. As i was sitting in class and our teacher was writing the name of the students that had received the most nominations for Valadictorian, and my name was third on the list! and the first girl too! i didn’t realize that many people liked me! and so we voted from the top ten people, and thinking that i wouldn’t be able to write a speech i didn’t even vote for my self. well i came in at a close race, second! wow i realize that being beautiful is just being accepted. Feeling that so many people cared about me made me feel like i was beautiful. that the radiating beauty feeling i wanted to feel before i could check this off! best of wishes for the rest of you in finding your own beauty.
_Julie

I went and layed in the yard yesterday for about two hours and i have an amazing tan now! my face looks so much better with some color in it!

every once in a while i’ll catch a random glimpse of beauty in my self, but its never there when i need to be beautiful (uhh school or big events with important people there?) sigh im hoping that i can get to a stage where everytime i look in the mirror i see someone beautiful looking back at me.

ive made a list of my best feataures, My face/skin my legs are really toned, and i have a nice back haha. this is part of an attempt to build self esteem. By posting it on here im admitting to the world that i can’t be that ugly if i at least have some good features.

I try not to complain about my image at all because all it does is make others feel crappy and drag them down into a bad mood anyways, but for one day, i just want to go out and be stunningly beautiful. The kind of beautiful where i have to take a second look in the mirror at myself to make sure its really me. I beleive that this kind of beauty starts on the inside. Its all about perspective, you could look in the mirror and think that you are ugly, and because thats how you feel, your feelings will show and others will begin to see you this way.