let go of all past hurts

I have felt much lighter since releasing my anger toward my father. I wrote him a letter, and the next time I go see him I’m going to read it to him. I’m a little nervous about it, but I really feel it’s time.

The last few days I realize I am letting go of some deep hurts. I haven’t had a good relationship with my father. The last time I cried because of how he acted or what he said was over 20 years ago. I held onto that anger and carried it around for so many years. I have been letting it go over about the last 10 years, but never really forgiving or releasing it. The last few days I find that I have finally been able to forgive him. I now understand how hard parenting is, and how your own life experiences can affect you so much that they overpower your desire to be a loving parent.

Also he is not in good health, and I don’t know how much time he has left. I think that as a gift to him and myself, that I should just release the anger and move on. I won’t ever forget, and sometimes I still hurt. But I’m letting go. I’m releasing all of that hurt and anger into the wind to blow away. Healing will create a new, warm space in me for blessings and joy.

Merry Christmas to me…..........

Past hurts are feeling like current hurts at this point. That could be progress. You have to go through the feelings to let them go, right?

Sometimes you think you’ve dealt with the past, and then all of a sudden there you are with feelings surging to the forefront. How do you know when you’ve let go of past hurts? Will they still always try to come back, even when you’ve moved on?