stop crying

In reference to my last entry.

It didn’t work.
It was a nice thought but, sadly, it didn’t work….

Happy one year anniversary to me!

Maybe no tears today?
Yes?
I think so.

We shall see!

“My head is screaming get a grip girl, unless youre dying to cry your heart out.”

Today was one of the first days that i havnt broken down in a long time. I know that the day isnt over yet and my mood is slowly dampening, so i decided to write this before that happoned.
I went to work today, then i went over dans. Thats what i usually do, and yet, today was amazing. No tears, just love.
I liked it a lot.

Yay for no tears!

ya…birthday with tears…lovely….

It’s muh birthday!
Lets see if we can get through one day without tears yes? yes.
That would be nice don’t ya think?

I used to be the girl that everyone thought could take on anything. I used to be able to laugh at anything, not take any shit from anyone, and come through it all with a smile.
Theses days, it seems like that girl has died.
I cry. Constantly. I get so emotional over the little things. I was over Dans house, and we were messing around like we do, and then Jess called. Lets just say that I don’t trust her at all when it comes to Dan. And so she called, and Dan was like, I cant talk now, Brittys here. And when he got off the phone all the energy that I had just seemed to dispear. We had been fooling around and he tried to get back to that but I wouldn’t let him get near me. And then I broke down completely, clinging onto him, and begging him not to leave me for her.
I cry about every little situation these days. I think that I might talk to my mom and have her try to get my on medication without my grandfather knowing.

You know that Reliant K song titled “Who I am Hates Who I’ve Been.”? Well, with me, it seems to be the other way around. Who I’ve been hates who I am…....