fall in love with someone who will love me back

I think I’m falling for someone I loved a long time ago and realising that, that person probably loves me more than anyone else ever has or will and it’s kind of scarying me :|

Man, why the hell is meeting someone in the first place so damn HARD??!!

Shit.
I really like this guy.
I have no idea what it is about him, I really can’t explain it…
But DAMN… Man.
My sister met him a few nights ago and she said: He’s cute, I can tell he’s a nice family guy, dad will like him
If only I could get over this damn shyness and talk to him, well ask him out for coffee at least!
Cause if this works out, it could be the start of something special!!

I like someone right now…
I guess it’s the first proper crush I have had in years(?)
This guy is so far from the people I would usually like… I don’t know there’s just something about him
we’ll see how it goes, if only I could get up some kind of courage to (maybe) tell him how I feel
I do talk to him, so I guess that’s a positive!! ;p

Am listening to the Deva mahal song “just can’t call it love” right now and it’s making me feel grand :)

“before we have love, L O V E, you need to treat me with R E S P E C T”

cause like gypsyjudy put it: “because I’m tired of undervaluing myself and allowing messed up energy suckers to have so much of me”

I had a talk to my mother about this, cause it seems that everytime I like someone I end up in a situation where I end up getting myself fucked over, or falling for guys who will end up fucking me over.
Is there something wrong with me? NO NOT AT ALL… so why is this happening? She said that she wasn’t the best person to ask advice on this, which is true but she said that there is someone out there for me, she can feel it…
But right now I just feel so bloody impatient!!