Let go of the past

This is always going to be a work in progress.
I’m working on it though.
Let go of the crap that was holding me back from learning/remembering Maori and just letting go of that whole kohanga experience….

It all comes down to FORGIVENESS/
That has been the major thing holding me back from letting go, I have said that it doesn’t affect me so many times but I haven’t forgiven, which I have started doing and not just from my head – saying words that I don’t really mean because I think it’s what I have to do, but saying the words from my heart because I KNOW it’s what I have to do if I really want to let go.
During this time I have realised that: unforgiveness eats away at the soul and makes you MORE bitter, forgiving people not only sets you free but the other person as well and… there are two sides to people. Good and bad, not saying that gives that person an excuse to do what they did…
I don’t know what I’m trying to say, well I do… just not how to say it right…Fergus said it better tonight ;p

Just saw that they are starting up the Living Waters course at Church again.
I know that it would probably be of some benefit to me… I’m just too scared to do it though…

If I really want let go of the past, I have to come to terms with/overcome anxiety…
Have tried pushing my boundaries a bit, lets see how this goes…

Haha. just edited this entry, saw how it looked… My GOD that was fresh
Lesson learnt, don’t update when OVERLY tired =/

I thought that I had fully “let go of the past” until just now, I was thinking about why things are going the way they are and realised that I still let something from my past control me from the back of my mind, it has been affecting the way I realate to some people and it isn’t healty by any stretch of the imagination.
I just want to let it go, to be set free from it… again (if that makes any sense)