be an awesome babysitter

despite my bitching about not having work, I have definitely been spoiled by not working 13 hour days anymore. Getting up at 5, working until 6 with a toddler who doesn’t know the rules yet…my patience is worn thin.

I will get used to it, she will get used to us but in the meantime, I have to muster all of my patience and strength through this ungodly long days. Her sister gets on the bus early and gets off right smack in the middle of nap time/L’s lessons. I pray she doesn’t cause too much a ruckus when she gets here.

Gosh, but it’s discouraging. I’m trying to find my calm center, to make the best of it. I beat myself up so badly when I do not love my job.

I’m resentful that I’m not making money. I’m finding it difficult to find a good perspective dealing with all the stress.

I realize I need to let that go and just work…

New girls today, bright and early. The three year old informs me repeatedly with a grin on first sight that she farted.

I gave them blankies and told them to rest awhile…(not ready for fart talk before the sun comes up on Monday morning, little princess)

Tis her sister’s last day of summer vacation. I bought some new bright sidewalk chalk crayons and am thinking of heading down to main street to play with the patterns in the sidewalk there….make some connections with the neighbors perhaps. They are part time girls, mama is sweet. It’s a very long day so decent money.

going off to kindergarten graduation party to come today. I shall try not to blubber…much. ahh, this part sucks. (bittersweet)

I know the babies will miss their siblings but I am looking forward to seeing how these two little mockingbirds carry on and behave without the olders. My son will have my daughter 3 days per week but little A will be all on his own.

a big stack of pancakes, colorful crayon hearts on the back patio, a play about insects in the garden directed by my daughter and bubbles on the front porch. :)

I really wish I could get a few more clients. :(

a quick rainstorm produced some delightful little puddles on my sidewalk which they immediately got to stomp and run in. :)

I’ve been quite disconnected from my job. I’m going through the motions but have been burnt out and not really pushing to improve anything.

Just letting the children be, and they are happy but I’m not doing anything “special”.

I had a seed of an idea yesterday….I need to think on it more. It could be something but it’s so tiny I dare not bring it out into the open as of yet.

took my late kid with us to the children’s museum. This baby is very flighty.

He was prone to wonder off and I had to keep a very very close eye on him. He was terrified of the public restrooms so I had to sing to him until he calmed down enough to pee.

Ultimately he seemed to have a great time climbing and jumping and riding the carousel.

peanut butter, maple syrup and bananas on wheat…cut into little triangles.

Oh yeah, I hook it up.

Yesterday, scrambled eggs and cheese on wheat with grapes on the side.

I feed them well and enjoy it

I was explaining the menu to a perspective parent last week saying basically, “it’s not all perfectly healthy but I do cook balanced meals for them”

she said, “pb&j every day would be fine with us, that’s what I would do”

I’ve been very productive this week.

I enjoy it as do the kiddos.

I took some notes for a wish list today, that’s always trouble.

I set out a cut and color basket and the playdough basket. I just let them choose which to use at one table so I could leave snacks out on the other. Some of the kiddos are picky eaters and/or nibblers so I want to make sure they get enough food.

We played outdoors for longer than we have in a while. It’s been so damn hot and it’s been difficult, honestly, for me to drag my behind out there.

The one patio is only water. I need to add some more fun stuff like gutters and tubes and more funnels. Water walls are very popular in preschools. I have some scrap wood, I may get ambitious and try to fashion one.

tons of pots of paint and paper and brushes for an outdoor center.

The only sensory thing indoors is the moon sand I made. It isn’t too bad at all. I tell ya, it’s so nice to have all the mess outside. There’s a rice table outside. I will say that the oats I had in the sensory tub on the front porch that I later swept off of the front porch seemed to have killed the flowers there. oops.

Anyway, I’m chatty today but…a very good week so far.

Oh man, this month has been a hormonal nightmare! Started with a painful ovulation and I continue to feel edgy.

Perhaps it’s more than hormones but my body feels it too.

I bet it has to do with how shittily I have been eating.

Today was cleaning day so the kids played like their crazy Monday monkey selves and I listened to Neko Case, scrubbed everything and gritted my teeth, lol.

I organized a lot after they left and set up some fun stuff so this week will be awesome, I’m sure.

Also, I will connect more with them with the media fast. That was kind of the goal of it anyway.