be more confident

I’ve been on my summer hols for about a month now and i’ve got another month to go!
I suddenly have felt a new sense of confidence i dont care what people think anymore , well i keep telling myself that and i think its working.
I’m starting a new saturday job on saturday so fingers crossed i’ll have loads of confidence!

i went to a birthday meal of a friend who left my school to go to another school a few yrs ago. There would only be her an dthis other girl who i would know.
I paniced before as i was so scared which annoyed me so much! But i made myself go. I was soo shy though when i was there and i’m so annoyed about it. I hardly talked and lost all my confidence.
At least though i met some people who are going to my 6th form next year and hopefully i wont be as shy.

i do actually feel more confident!
after going shopping yesterday and just talking to people i feel really good. i think also having it written on here pushes me to be confident and i think it is really working yay.

i’m going to the city tomorrow to shop with my mum and its going to be fab because i’m going to ask the assistans for help and not get my mum to do it!
i know it may sound a bit sad but i’m going to be confident and do things on my own.
i’m going to smile and pretend as if i’m just talking to a friend and not get all shy

i have days when i feel really confident and fantastic and feel i have my friends around me and then i find out they havent invited me somewhere which really knocks me down. In the past couple of months i was becoming alot more confident but now i’ve hit rock bottom, i feel as if i dont have any real friends and just alone.
i’m quite shy which is down to the lack of confidence i feel people find me boring, and i just want to change this. i’m sick of it.