After my little episode the other day I’ve started looking back at the positive things. My brother sent me a picture that he took of Strawberry Fields and at first I was annoyed that he was there taking pictures and then rubbing it in my face. But then I told myself…WAIT a minute….He knows how much I LOVE John Lennon & The Beatles and how badly I want to be there. He isn’t rubbing this in your face…he is sharing something with you that you love! He was thinking of me…while he is out having (I’m sure) an amazing time in New York he took the time out to send me something he knew I would enjoy…he took time out for me. Why should I be so upset while he is enjoying something that I will enjoy someday too? I realize now that I’ve got to stop feeling sorry for myself when others get to do something I would enjoy! I’ve got SO many things to be thankful for! Joe & I are both healthy. Wicket is healthy (just fat) and we are about to move into a beautiful loft in our Downtown District!! Sure our house hasn’t sold yet, but at least we don’t have any major problems we have to fix…the right person just hasn’t looked yet!
So While I’m not RELENTLESSLY optimistic yet….I am a bit more optimistic than I have been in a while. Still need to move though ;)
I’ve been doing a HORRIBLE job at this goal!! I’ve really tried to look at the bright side of things and tried to be at least positive…BUT…here is where I start rambling and feeling sorry for myself, feel free to skip to the end!
First my house has been on the market for almost 2 months and no serious lookers (only one repeat looker but apparently she didn’t like something), my brother’s house has been on the market for 3 weeks and he has already sold! They don’t even know where they are going to move to and I have a place waiting for me!!! Second my sister-in-law is going to Jamaica this weekend and I haven’t had a vacation since my wedding 4 years ago. 3rd my brother is also getting to go on a vacation to NEW YORK! The ONE place I have wanted to go for years and he is going AGAIN this week. They just went last spring break! And him and his wife have been jumping all across the US in the last 2 months (Vegas, Chicago, Atlanta, Florida, New Orleans) granted most of that was work but still…here is sit stuck in this stupid podunk little town!!
I’m just ready to sale my house, move to the loft & go to New York!!!
Well that feels a little bit better getting to vent…even if it is to either no one or a bunch of strangers!! I’ve really got to start working on being relentlessly optimistic!!!! I can do it…I KNOW I can…...............I just may have to move first ;)