Reading about the everyday aspects of mindfulness on wikipedia here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mindfulness#Examples_from_contemplative_and_daily_life
has gently revealed to me why it has been futile for me to try and ‘externally’ (driven by righteousness, if you prefer) change my inner dialogue or my actions.
It’s like putting my energies in things and goals that shift from important to insignificant due to change in external circumstances, or that weren’t so significant to begin with.
Then, wasted energy strikes back with a vengeance.
So, to channel my energy wisely, I need to continuously ask myself how I feel working on this particular goal, and to decide if it’s worth continuing.
Being a procrastinator has allowed me to postpone this confrontation with myself on a huge number of issues, pushing all those decisions into the distant future.
By listing my 43 things and asking myself what I can do today to promote them (and if I really want to accomplish them after all), I am pushing myself to align my thoughts with my actions.
This is good stuff! Even though I am changing my page all the time (which may be confusing to visitors), I am content because it gives a clear picture of my priorities, thoughts, and wishes IN THE MOMENT.
